Moving and moving on.

In my last post I was still unsure if I was going to move back to the mid-west... but a peculiar, but not too outta left field, string of events has occurred. Like I had mentioned in my last post, me and my mom are like oil and water...we don't mix..at all. All we really do is clash with one another. It was only a matter of time before world war three started at my house. I'm glad the explosion occurred before I went on my trip to Kansas because now instead of flying out there from march 8Th to the 16Th, I now am just using my ticket money to fly Joseph out here to California and we are gonna drive the lovely 26 hours back to Kansas in my car. I will be on the edge of my seat the whole drive PRAYING that my car will make it! I am leaving a week from yesterday, march 4Th. It is so last minute and sort of haphazard, but I just gotta get the hell outta dodge. Until I leave on Thursday I plan on just staying with friends and as far away from my mother as humanly possible! :) Life is good, life is grand! I love the feeling of just getting a stress off your back...and that's what I feel I am doing. I'm sure no one really understands how one can just stop talking to their mother... but again, this has just been a long time coming. I'm sure the feeling is mutual, too. She doesn't like me much either. I'm killing two birds with one stone here, by moving! Maybe even more.

Along with moving to Kansas, I am also moving on with some personal issues. I have been unable to get a good sleep lately because my mind has been consumed with just thought. I have been mulling through why I can't let go of certain things. What experiences have hindered that from occurring. Being your own psychologist is ridiculous! But I think I am improving on a lot of stuff. I am finally able to realize that just because someone loved you, and no longer does, doesn't mean that they never did. Even though I'm trying my hardest to move on I am fully aware, and fully accept, that I may never be able to fully be able to get past my issues and feelings 100 percent...and that's okay! As long as I can handle them and deal with them appropriately. :) My life is beginning to look bright. I'm excited for life and what it has to offer!