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Hey folks!
In typical Courtney fashion I totally forgot all about this blog and had to re set my password. I never thought this would be possible, but my short term memory has gotten worse lately. Insane. It's funny, EVERYTIME I am done writing a post I renew my commitment to blogging once again....and then forget about it like 10 minutes later. Maybe I should google ways to exercise my ability to remember things. Google ROCKS!

Also in typical Courtney fashion, I got the itch to do a new thing.... So I moved to florida!! My girlfriend, Lauren, graduated from nursing school and got her dream job working on the transplant unit at Tampa general hospital. You'd think picking up and moving halfway across the country (again), quitting your current job, leaving your sister and best friend, and the city that's become home would be tough but for me it really wasnt. In my previous post I promised myself I would no longer take for granted time. It's such a precious thing. The move to Florida, although hard, was a great decision. My time here is proving to be well spent, and is affording me the ability to really learn about myself and others. Years from now I can't and won't look back on these years and be unhappy. If it's true, and we only live once, why should I have to spend it pleasing people or things that don't make me happy? Why should I spend my time, money, and energy on school, for example, if it's not something that makes me happy? My family asks me all the time when I'm going to school and my response is always " as soon as I figure out what I WANT to do". I guess I don't blame my mom and family for being scared from the statement, because I've never realllllly WANTED to do anything other then things that really hold no significance In the big girl world. Aka listening to music, excersizing, food..
The few things I love really are just not realistic to peruse. I often wonder what gene I didn't get that has made it impossible for me to set goals.

Lauren rocks! She is everything I'm not and everything I could ever want to be. She understands and accepts me for who I am and puts up with my indecisiveness more than anyone ever has or probably ever will. She came into my life at a time I was uncertain I could ever feel for anyone or anything ever again. I was so numb to life before her, and since her I have become so alive. She makes me feel like I am capable of anything, and she supports me in everything. I am so lucky to be apart of her life. The places she will go in life are unreal. I'm grateful for her, always. I love her and I know she loves me. She is all I really need.

The past few months have been full of learning, Lauren, and moving. Hopefully the next few will be full of blogging (wishful thinking?), and becoming more acquainted with life here in Tampa.

Until next time!

HOLA!

Again, I have failed to make regular updates on this. Sigh.....I try!
I have been keeping fairly busy, believe it or not. The bank I work for has been going through some changes which means more sass from the customers, which in turn makes me want to not talk to anyone or anything once I get home.
I can't believe it is almost March! March will mark my one year here in Kansas. It's hard to go a week without thinking "wow, time seriously does fly" ...and it is so so true. It seems like a week ago that I drove my exploder out to Kansas with no real vision other than to just get the hell out of California. It wasn't until a few months ago when I actually took a step back and looked at what I was doing, and realized I wasn't taking advantage of everything this life, this world, has to offer. I know, i know...cheesy! It sounds like something that my mom or grandma has told me at some point! As with almost everything, there words of wisdom have turned out to be very true. I guess youth made me oh so very blind to the realities of such things like time, and how precious it really it is.

Have you ever thought, REALLLLLLYYY thought, about how EVERYTHING came to be? This question has been consuming most of my thoughts lately. One could say "It's God and Jesus and Christ"... but that still leaves so many questions. I could ask..well, how did they come to be?.. "Just have faith" would probably be the response. I won't settle with that, I just cant. Don't get me wrong, I am not discounting the existence of a God, in fact I am well aware that there HAS TO BE something that created this all. But if there is a God I am sure he or she would not want me (or anyone for that matter) to just blindly accept anything anyone would say. Past experiences have shown me that to have faith in anything, not just in a higher being, one must first ask questions. All of the people through history that have had a deep deep testimony of all these questions I ask have come to this knowledge by simply asking a question or two. I think if questions weren't asked we would still be running around in the dark without spears. So, this year my new years resolution is to respect time, and to ask as many questions as I want.


In other exciting news since my last update...I bought a new car! It is a 2010 Mazda 3. It is pretty spiffy. My explorer, as much as I loved her, was not going to be very safe in the winter time. The heater no longer worked, my seatbelt had broken, the windshield wipers were pretty useless...the list goes on and on. I loved my explorer...but I also love my own life..so poor dora had to go. Also, I got a sweet tattoo. It is on my right shoulder blade and is of a rad peacock feather with some paisley involved. Me and my sister both got one to commemorate our love for one another. I love my sister, she rocks.